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1991 11 10 SRILA PRABHUPADA DISP DAY WITH SBNM AND TKG

Srila Gurudeva: It is very auspicious day today because when guru is in this planet there is a relation as guru and śiṣya – disciple and spiritual master. At that time, our whole energy goes to carry out his orders. At that time we can not think soley outwardly and internally what his motive is. But today, on this auspicious day, we have a time to think on whole life what he has done, who he was, what he wanted to teach, and why he has come to this sphere.

When Caitanya Mahāprabhu, or Kṛṣṇa, was present at that time people could not understand of Kṛṣṇa or mission of Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu. Internally they did not know. But when He left this sphere, when He left Navadvīpa, Navadvīpa persons (quotes verse).

Now when your Prabhupāda is not here, my śikṣā-guru is not here, in our opinion. He is here. He is everywhere. He is akhaṇḍa-guru-tattva. He is prakāśa, manifestion, of Nityānanda Prabhu or Baladeva. But yet we are not seeing, but not seeing as instance when Kṛṣṇa was in Vṛndāvana, sakhā, gopīs with Kṛṣṇa, dancing in rāsa, always in yugala-vilāse, vihara. But when Kṛṣṇa went to Mathurā, and from Mathurā he went to Dvārakā, (the) gopīs realized something more than meeting: that is vipralambha-bhāva.

By our sight we can mostly see him on that form that you have seen. He has told something. He has ordered something. He has given so many teachings. But now, after some days, he has left this sphere and he has gone to Rādhā-Kṛṣṇa yugala. Perhaps he has given opportunity to know who he was and for what purpose he has come here. He has written Bhagavad-gītā As It Is. He has written Easy Journey to Other Planets. He has written the commentary of Śrīmad Bhāgavatam. So many things he has done. But he wanted to do something more. But he could not do because we were not in a position and were were not so qualified that at that time he could give all these things. But now, by his grace, we all are in a more good mood to understand.

When Kṛṣṇa went to Dvārakā, Uddhava came to Vṛndāvana. When he was taking order from Kṛṣṇa that, "You are sending me to Vṛndāvana but how can I live in Vṛndāvana without You?"

Kṛṣṇa told that, "Don’t think like so. I am in a very lakhs and lakhs – one part of lakhs and lakhs parts, but I am fully, solely in Vṛndāvana with gopīs and there. When you will go to Vṛndāvana you will see that I am solely in Vṛndāvana with gopīs and in Vraja. I am not in Mathurā. I am not at all in Mathurā. I am solely in Vṛndāvana

So, now today is the day when we can think more and more about Svāmīji, your Prabhupāda. That who he was, what he wanted to give in this world. There are so many teachers and so many preachers who went to Western countries. Like Vivekananda and others, so many. And nowadays also there are so many preachers, those who go to Western countries and other parts of the world. But I think what Prabhupāda has given there, they could not give there. They have taken (something) and (put it) in new bottle they have given there. But he has given what Caitanya Mahāprabhu Himself wanted to give this world. He has given name within prema-sūtra.

sei dvāre ācaṇḍāle kīrtana sañcāre
nāma-prema-mālā gāṅthi' parāila saṁsāre

[Thus He spread kīrtana even among the untouchables. He wove a wreath of the holy name and prema, with which He garlanded the entire material world. CC Ādi (4.40)]

As Caitanya Mahāprabhu is

namo mahā-vadānyāya kṛṣṇa-prema-pradāya te 
kṛṣṇāya kṛṣṇa-caitanya-nāmne gaura-tviṣe namaḥ

[I offer praṇāma unto Śrī Kṛsṇa-Caitanya, who is Śrī Kṛṣṇa Himself. Having assumed the golden hue of Śrīmatī Rādhikā, He is munificently bestowing kṛṣṇa-prema, the rarest of all gifts. Śrīman Mahāprabhu vandanā]

Caitanya Mahāprabhu is mahā-vadānyāya. Similarly, Rūpa, Sanātana Gosvāmīs are mahā-vadānyāya. In guru-paramparā Jīva Gosvāmī, Raghunātha Dāsa Gosvāmī, Kṛṣṇadāsa Kavirāja Gosvāmī, Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura, Baladeva Vidyābhūṣaṇa, Śrīla Bhaktivinoda Ṭhākura: all are mahā-vadānyāya because they have tried to give the same thing that Caitanya Mahāprabhu wanted to give. And Śrīla Prabhupāda, Śrīla Bhaktisiddhānta Sarasvatī Ṭhākura, sent him knowing that he is a very great personality. And he can give my heartfelt desire. He can fulfill and give in Western countries. We know that Vivekananda could not give anything to Western countries. Similarly all other preachers went there. They have given only these four things: dharma, artha, kāma, mokṣa – not moksadharma, artha, kāma, three things. Some preachers have tried to give them mokṣa also but not this Kṛṣṇa prema they tried to give. He went there – Alone! He went there. Perhaps guru was with him and Rādhā-Kṛṣṇa was also Caitanya Mahāprabhu, Nityānanda Prabhu was with him but we could not see. We saw that he went alone. He went alone with not a single paisa with him.

I first met him in Kolatta on Akṣaya Tṛtiyā the establishment day of Gauḍīya Vedānta Samiti our gurudeva Bhakti Prajñāna Keśava Gosvāmī Mahārāja who gave him sannyāsa order. At that time he was not sannyāsī, your Śrīla Prabhupāda, he called him he came in a gṛhastha veṣa. But I have not seen before, but I knew him by ears but not by eyes. I think to see by ears is more valuable than seeing by this. I had heard so many times and so many things from my gurudeva. That he is a very great personality. He is a good writer and very yukti-vadi, always nirbhayāḥ, nirbhayāḥ means no fear at all. And he is preacher of satya, truth. No fear from anyone. I heard that he has written so many things in Gauḍīya Patrika and others, Hindi Bhāgavata Patrika and English Back to Godhead at the time of Prabhupāda – (not Back to Godhead) Harmonist. Prabhupāda has told him to give articles in Harmonist and you will have to go to Western countries to preach Caitanya Mahāprabhu's teachings there.

When I saw him I was very much attracted to him. And anyhow I used to sit with him and talked with him and he was so much powerful in talking. At that time he used to not give lectures. But talking most influential. And when he used to do talk from Śrīmad Bhāgavatam with meanings

 ete cāṁśa-kalāḥ puṁsaḥ
 kṛṣṇas tu bhagavān svayam
indrāri-vyākulaṁ lokaṁ
 mṛḍayanti yuge yuge

[All of the above-mentioned incarnations are either plenary portions or portions of the plenary portions of the Lord, but Lord Śrī Kṛṣṇa is the original Personality of Godhead. All of them appear on planets whenever there is a disturbance created by the atheists. The Lord incarnates to protect the theists. S.B. (1.3.28)]

He used to give word by word explanations. So beautiful and so in good manners that all can be satisfied and they will have to agree him. So, I first saw him in Kolkata and after that he went to Allahabad. He wrote so many things in our Gauḍīya Patrika and I used to read them so meticulously. When he came to Mathurā he told me one thing. That I was so much fearing that I should not leave this world and I will not take sannyāsa order. But I see that that fear has fallen upon me. I have read that

śrī-bhagavān uvāca
yasyāham anugṛhṇāmi
 hariṣye tad-dhanaṁ śanaiḥ
tato ’dhanaṁ tyajanty asya
 svajanā duḥkha-duḥkhitam

[The Personality of Godhead said: If I especially favor someone, I gradually deprive him of his wealth. Then the relatives and friends of such a poverty-stricken man abandon him. In this way he suffers one distress after another. S.B. (10.88.8)]

In Śrīmad Bhāgavatam. Those who take shelter of Kṛṣṇa they became akiñcanā niṣkiñcana and no – he become no rich and all other things. So, I used to always fear from this śloka. But I see that by chanting and by serving here in Mathurā I am going to take sannyāsa.

At first temples did not know him, that he is so qualified. When he took sannyāsa and went to Jhansi went to Agra and other places then he became – then persons used to know that who he is. So, when he came to Mathurā and from Mathurā he came to Rādhā-Damodara temple I was with him. I saw that he was so niṣkiñcana. Nothing with him. No quilt – nothing. Only a very torn quilt and after that I used to give my chadar on that and on that we used to sit and (have) conversation about Rūpa Gosvāmī and other gosvāmīs and what he is writing he used to let me see. At that time we both, in midday, we used to make chapati with our own hands. He used to do like this – and I used to put on (the) fire and then we took (chapatti). I was also with him at Delhi. He was always in writing chanting. Not a moment he (idle). In Mathurā I saw him. Always writing and thinking all these things. He has a plan at Mathurā that I will go to Western countries and if they will permit I will make hostel’s and there, if it will be needed, I will distribute eggs, meat, wine also – and I have full faith that by taking holy name of Kṛṣṇa in a very few days they will leave everything. And that is why he went there and in no time he spread in whole world his mission.

I see that (quotes verse).

I have not seen ācārya. Even Sankaracharya he took some time and he spread only in India at that time. But he, in a few days, I think from 1968 to 1977. In this in whole India, Western countries, Eastern countries, everywhere. So many places. So many centers everywhere, Rādhā-Kṛṣṇa, Caitanya Mahāprabhu, Nityānanda, he established. Not only established, he brought very good boys, scholars, like Tamal Kṛṣṇa, Bhavananda, Brahamanda, Kirtanananda. Not only (these) – so many. Hundreds and thousands of boys. Not only boys. Also girls, women’s, children’s he brought and in shape of sannyāsī, in shape of brahmacārī. All other groups of our Gauḍīya Maṭha also admit this fact: that he has no guru-niṣṭha as ISKCON has. Certainly they admit and I also admit that you have so much faith and so much belief in your gurudeva that we have not so much faith. You are also very qualified persons. He collected magical one. He called all these things and he (quotes verse) gave a shape of (what) Bhaktivinoda Ṭhākura said. We see now that we Indians and Westerns no hairs, with tiki, with mala, ladies and gentlemen’s and all devotees (are chanting):

Hare Kṛṣṇa, Hare Kṛṣṇa, Kṛṣṇa Kṛṣṇa, Hare Hare/
Hare Rāma, Hare Rāma, Rāma Rāma, Hare Hare

I think in India we see that all our āśramas are without ladies. But he has given a scope for Western persons because if I will tell them that you should all have to be brahmacārī and sannyāsī then it is so hard to preach there and at least every jīva has qualities to serve Kṛṣṇa. They have

janma siddha adhikāra 

birthright to serve Kṛṣṇa. If they are ladies or females or any jīva – everyone has qualities and they have a right to serve Kṛṣṇa consciousness.

So he has done so. According to Kali-yuga we will have to be so (broadminded, adaptable). So he has given a scope. If he has not given a scope I think this preaching is not so very much in this world. But he has given something as a common thing. He had no time at all at that time. He had preached only general things. He has given in books so many things but he could not preach all. In bhakti we see that there is are so many stages of bhakti:

ādau śraddhā tataḥ sādhu- saṅgo 'tha bhajana-kriyā
tato 'nartha-nivṛttiḥ syāt tato niṣṭhā rucis tataḥ

athāsaktis tato bhāvas tataḥ premābhyudañcati
sādhakanām ayaṁ premṇaḥ prādurbhāve bhavet kramaḥ

[In the beginning one must have a preliminary desire for self­-realization. This will bring one to the stage of trying to associate with persons who are spiritually elevated. In the next stage one becomes initiated by an elevated spiritual master, and under his instruction the neophyte devotee begins the process of devotional service. By execution of devotional service under the guidance of the spiritual master, one becomes free from all material attachment, attains steadiness in self-­realization, and acquires a taste for hearing about the Supreme Personality of Godhead, Śrī Kṛṣṇa. This taste leads one further forward to attachment for Ƙṛṣṇa consciousness, which is matured in bhāva, or the preliminary stage of transcendental love of God. Real love for God is called prema, the highest perfectional stage of life. Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu (1.4.15–16)]

In this world we can go only up to this. Here one thing is that bhakti is only uttamā bhakti. He wanted to preach all these things that I am saying in Western countries also. That Rūpa Gosvāmī has given in Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu, Ujjvala-nīlamaṇi, and all his other books and Raghunātha Dāsa Gosvāmī, Kṛṣṇadāsa Kavirāja Gosvāmī, and all our guru-paramparā has given this. He wanted to give all things in Western countries but he could not do at that time because time was not so much. Only 10 or 12 years he has done. So, he tried to give śrāddha then niṣṭha then ruci. What is niṣṭha? We should know. We are chanting harināma. We are doing all activities as

śrī-prahrāda uvāca
śravaṇaṁ kīrtanaṁ viṣṇoḥ
smaraṇaṁ pāda-sevanam
arcanaṁ vandanaṁ dāsyaṁ
sakhyam ātma-nivedanam
iti puṁsārpitā viṣṇau
bhaktiś cen nava-lakṣaṇā
kriyeta bhagavaty addhā
tanmanye 'dhītam uttamam

["Prahlāda Mahārāja said: 'Hearing and chanting about the transcendental holy name, form, qualities, paraphernalia and pastimes of Lord Viṣṇu, remembering them, serving the lotus feet of the Lord, offering the Lord respectful worship with sixteen types of paraphernalia, offering prayers to the Lord, becoming His servant, considering the Lord's one's best friend, and surrendering everything unto Him (in other words, serving Him with the body, mind and words)–these nine processes are accepted as pure devotional service. One who has dedicated his life to the service of Kṛṣṇa through these nine methods should be understood to be the most learned person, for he has acquired complete knowledge.'" SB (7.5.23-24), Madhya (9.259-260)]

or

sādhu-saṅga, nāma-kīrtana, bhāgavata-śravaṇa
mathurā-vāsa, śrī-mūrtira śraddhāya sevana 

["One should associate with devotees, chant the holy name of the Lord, hear Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam, reside at Mathurā and worship the Deity with faith and veneration." (Madhya 22.128)]

We are doing. But we should go deep in all these things. Niṣṭha. What is the meaning of niṣṭha? When all anartha go away. What is the anartha?

 asat-saṅga-tyāga, — ei vaiṣṇava-ācāra
'strī-saṅgī' — eka asādhu, 'kṛṣṇābhakta' āra

[A Vaiṣṇava should always avoid the association of ordinary people. Common people are very much materially attached, especially to women. Vaiṣṇavas should also avoid the company of those who are not devotees of Lord Kṛṣṇa. CC Madhya (22.87)]

Those who are viṣayī, don't do bhakti to Kṛṣṇa, we should not do sanga of these persons. Those who are entangled in only intoxication, and other things, we should not do all these things.

svarūpa-bhrama (being in illusion about one's spiritual identity); (2) asat-tṛṣṇā' (thirst for temporary material enjoyment); (3) hṛdaya-daurbalya (weakness of the heart) and (4) aparādha (offenses).

Jaiva-Dharma

nāma-aparādha, vaiṣṇava-aparādha, sevā-aparādha, dhāma-aparādha. These are all anarthas. In Madhurya Kadambini (by Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura) he has written about all these things, what are anarthas. When all anarthas go away then niṣṭha comes.

Niṣṭha means (quote verse).

We know that Kṛṣṇa is so good thing. We know that hearing of Kṛṣṇa and chanting of Kṛṣṇa is so good. But we can not do. But when we know by buddhi, buddhi means wisdom, that without doing so we can not go up in bhakti. Then it is called niṣṭha; niṣṭha not buddhi. I will die – yet I will die – but I can not leave Kṛṣṇa bhakti. This is niṣṭha. I want to do one lakh of harināma as Śri Caitanya Mahāprabhu, Haridāsa Ṭhākur, our gosvāmīs used to do. But we go to Rādhā-kuṇḍa (and other places) and gold catches us –we can not do. So, we want to do all these things but we can not do – but we try to do – this is niṣṭha. And when ruci comes, ruci means taste, then it comes in here. And when āsakti comes then without doing we can not live. As if we will die if we don’t take name or we don’t hear hari-kathā. If a man. There are two kinds of persons. Śrāddha is of two kinds. One is vaidhi-śrāddha and other is rāgānuga. Śrīla Bhaktivedānta Svāmī Mahārāja has spread vaidhi-bhakti. At that time he had no chance, no appropriate time to tell about rāgānuga-bhakti. He has written in his books but if he at that time told, I think at that time we were not so qualified that we could learn that thing. So he has not given. But he has shown the part that how we can by doing vaidhi-bhakti we can go in rāgānuga-bhakti. Rāgānuga-bhakti from lobha maiyī śrāddha. Greed. By greed, by hearing some Śrīmad Bhāgavatam. If a man has greed in Śrīmad Bhāgavatam in gopī-bhāva or vātsalya-bhāva or sakhya-bhāva especially Caitanya Mahāprabhu has come here to give:

anarpita-carīṁ cirāt karuṇayāvatīrṇaḥ kalau
samarpayitum unnatojjvala-rasāṁ sva-bhakti-śriyam
hariḥ puraṭa-sundara-dyuti-kadamba-sandīpitaḥ
sadā hṛdaya-kandare sphuratu vaḥ śacī-nandanaḥ

[May the Supreme Lord who is known as the son of Śrīmatī Śacī-devī be transcendentally situated in the innermost chambers of your heart. Resplendent with the radiance of molten gold, He has appeared in the Age of Kali by His causeless mercy to bestow what no incarnation has ever offered before: the most sublime and radiant mellow of devotional service, the mellow of conjugal love. C.C. (Ādi 1.4, Ādi 3.4, Antya 1.132) - Vidagdha-mādhava (1.2)]

Meaning is so deep. Especially he has come. Your gurudeva has also come. Svāmīji has also come to give this thing. But, he (prepare) this soil, land. So that he may give this seed in that (soil). So much time he took only to make soil for seed. He has given seed but so much time passed in only to making good soil. He has told that any one (has) māyāvāda or advaita-vāda bhakti can not be there. Prabhupāda has also told this. But for the thing he has come down to this sphere only to give Caitanya Mahāprabhu mission:

anarpita-carīṁ cirāt karuṇayāvatīrṇaḥ kalau
samarpayitum unnatojjvala-rasāṁ sva-bhakti-śriyam

What is that thing? I have told perhaps so many times but again I want to say. And that was the mission of Śrīla Prabhupāda also. That:

anarpita-carīṁ cirāt karuṇayāvatīrṇaḥ kalau
samarpayitum unnatojjvala-rasāṁ sva-bhakti-śriyam

unnatojjvala-rasāṁ is gopī bhāva. Not svakīyā-bhāva of Dvārakā but parakīya-bhāva of Vraja. Caitanya Mahāprabhu or Svāmīji has not come to give this thing. unnatojjvala-rasāṁ is of Śrīmati Rādhikā. Caitanya Mahāprabhu has come to taste these things, not to give to others.

unnatojjvala-rasāṁ sva-bhakti-śriyam. sva means Rādhikā. Rādhikā is praying:

śrī-rādhāyāḥ praṇaya-mahimā kīdṛśo vānayaivā-
svādyo yenādbhuta-madhurimā kīdṛśo vā madīyaḥ
saukhyaṁ cāsyā mad-anubhavataḥ kīdṛśaṁ veti lobhāt
tad-bhāvāḍhyaḥ samajani śacī-garbha-sindhau harīnduḥ

[Desiring to understand the glory of Rādhārāṇī’s love, the wonderful qualities in Him that She alone relishes through Her love, and the happiness She feels when She realizes the sweetness of His love, the Supreme Lord Hari, richly endowed with Her emotions, appeared from the womb of Śrīmatī Śacī-devī, as the moon appeared from the ocean. CC Ādi (1.6) - CC Ādi (4.230)]

Caitanya Mahāprabhu was Kṛṣṇa. He came in Caitanya Mahāprabhu's form, having stolen the inner bhāva and complexion; He came in the shape of Caitanya Mahāprabhu, Lord Gaurāṅga – Śacī-nandana. Why Śacī-nandana? Because He was very dear to His mother and mother was so humble and kṛpālu (merciful). So, Caitanya Mahāprabhu, I think, Rūpa Gosvāmī is telling: śacī-nandanaḥ that Śacī-devī is so much dayāluḥ, merciful. So her Son must be so kṛpālu as a mother (is). And He will give us, as a mother gives her breast to her son, so Caitanya Mahāprabhu will give that prema to us. So he is praying to Caitanya Mahāprabhu.

He is not at that time Kṛṣṇa. (He is) Kṛṣṇa but in the form of Śrīmati Rādhikā. Rādhikā is also so much merciful; more than Kṛṣṇa. Rādhikā is whole kṛpā of Kṛṣṇa in the form of Rādhikā. So much merciful.

So, here, śacī-nandanaḥ means so much merciful. What He will give? He can not give three things. What Śrīmati Rādhikā tasted rādhāyāḥ praṇaya-mahimā how Kṛṣṇa is beautiful, how He blows His flute...

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So mañjarīs are: rupa mañjarī, ananda mañjarī, rati mañjarī, lavanga mañjarī, and all mañjarīs, vinode mañjarī, kamala mañjarī...

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That you should all enter in his priya bhakti, rāgānuga bhakti, and prema bhakti and in this life also you should go, enter in this bhakti realm.

(Speaking Hindi)...

Gaura premānande!

GBC: Śrīpad Nārāyaṇa Mahārāja has satisfied (everyone) by breaking his vow to speak in Hindi and he has spoken in English so that we can all relish very much his glorification of Śrīla Prabhupāda. And he has reminded us of what Śrīla Prabhupāda's mission is actually. He is no less broad-minded than Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu. No less broad-minded than Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī. No less broad-minded than his Guru Mahārāja Śrīla Bhaktisid dhānta Sarasvatī Ṭhākura. And that is that he has come to give the world the greatness gift of all. And Śrīla Nārāyaṇa Mahārāja has ended and spoken very clearly that the real purpose is to develop love of God. Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī has taught:

sevā sādhaka-rūpeṇa
siddha-rūpeṇa cātra hi
tad-bhāva-lipsunā kāryā
vraja-lokānusārataḥ

[The advanced devotee who is inclined to spontaneous loving service should follow the activities of a particular associate of Kṛṣṇa's in Vṛndāvana. He should execute service externally as a regulative devotee as well as internally from his self-realized position. Thus he should perform devotional service both externally and internally. CC Madhya (22.158) - Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu (1.2.295)]

That we have to understand how to render devotional service and all of the practices which must be followed in order to qualify for love of Kṛṣṇa. Śrīla Nārāyaṇa Mahārāja has spoken that Śrīla Prabhupāda wanted us to, and does want us, to develop the higher stages of love of Kṛṣṇa – practicing rāgānuga-bhakti eventually.

So, how will this be done? Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī has described how this should be done. As a sādhaka we should not think ourselves prematurely advanced but we should follow the practices of sādhana bhakti. And what is the most important principle of sādhana bhakti? Guru-pādasaya: firm faith, love, and devotion to the lotus feet of the spiritual master. And, as he has said, in all of the Gauḍīya Maṭhas they appreciate so much how in ISKCON there is this firm faith on the lotus feet of the spiritual master. Why? Perhaps because, as you have said, Prabhupāda came with a magic wand. Because we know exactly what we were and we did not understand what he was; but we knew very well what we were. We were the most fallen persons. We did not know the name Kṛṣṇa, we did not have any good qualities whatsoever, but he acted like a touchstone. By his association, as Sanātana Gosvāmī has said, bell metal can change into gold something by the touch of the alchemist's stone. So, in the same way, by his contact those with very base qualities have become transformed. It was done by his desire. He had such a strong desire, he had so much love for Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu and so much appreciation for giving Caitanya Mahāprabhu's mercy, that he worked day and night tirelessly. His Guru-Mahārāja gave him his order and he had absolute faith in that order and, as Prahlāda Mahārāja said, "I don't want liberation, so long I can serve my Guru-Mahārāja, I don't want liberation."

We had one Prabhupāda's disciple speaking. He was Prabhupāda's servant. He said Prabhupāda was forcing the servants to force him to preach more and more and they could see that by doing this preaching he was gradually getting weaker and weaker and going towards death, but he was saying to them, "I want this blessing. I want this blessing that I should die like a soldier in the field."

When Prabhupāda was here in 1977 he was so weak that he could not lift his hands by himself. So, he was staying now in the room, he called me late in the night, maybe it was 11:00 o'clock at night. He said, "We have tried everything and all medicines have failed me. So, now I think that Kṛṣṇa wants me to go back – so kindly let me go back." So, as a disciple, how could I say, "Yes"? Because as Narottama dāsa Ṭhākura sings: the disciple breaks his head on the stone thinking of the separation of his Guru-Mahārāja. So, I was thinking, "What to do?" How to convince Śrīla Prabhupāda that he should not give up his will? Then I said, "Śrīla Prabhupāda, the problem that Vṛndāvana is a place to come to die. Your Guru-Mahārāja didn't tell you to stay in Vṛndāvana. He told you to go to the West. So, I think that the reason you are dying is because you are in Vṛndāvana. You should go to the West. I said, "If you go to the West" and then I quoted the Bhagavad-gītā verse – I quoted it in English. That, if you die, Kṛṣṇa told Arjuna, "If you die, you will to the heavenly planets and if you live you can enjoy the Earthly kingdom." So, I said, "If you live then you can preach so much and if you die, so what, you are always in Vṛndāvana. Wherever you go is Vṛndāvana."

So, when Prabhupāda heard this, although he was so weak, he sat up like this. And he said, "Actually, Kṛṣṇa has spoken through you." He said, "Let us go to the West and we will preach and I will die like a soldier in the field. And if I die in New York," he said, "you will have to bury me on the roof of the building because there is no place on the street, there are only buildings, so you will have to bury me on the top of the roof."

So, this was Prabhupāda's mood that we saw. And I only say this: that, what is the qualification, what is our qualification for entering rāgānuga bhakti? Surely the best qualification we have is the preaching mission which Prabhupāda gave us because without that preaching, what are we? We are not very good sādhus, we fall asleep while chanting our japa, we become tired while reading, we commit so many mistakes and offenses. But I think that, a word that Prabhupāda told: One day I approached him in Bombay and I said Śrīla Prabhupāda, "You are sending us to the bank, you are forcing us to do all these apparently worldly acts, so I don't think I can quote Śrīmad Bhagavad-gītā as well as I can quote the Bombay municipal laws."'

So, Prabhupāda says, "That is not very good. You should be able to quote Bhagavad-gītā."

And I said, "But you are giving us all these things to do."

So then he said, "For so many lifetimes, you have spoiled your life. Now somehow you have come to Kṛṣṇa consciousness, so I am requesting you, that in this lifetime you sacrifice it for the mission to Caitanya Mahāprabhu. If you give your life whole heartedly in the service of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu then I promise you that whatever you are lacking Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu will personally come and cover for you and take you back to Godhead."

So, guru-pādasraya. What is the mission of Śrīla Prabhupāda? It is a two-fold mission. One the one hand it is to spread Kṛṣṇa consciousness all over the world with all of our energy and on the other hand it is to personally become Kṛṣṇa conscious ourselves. You can not spread Kṛṣṇa consciousness if you are not Kṛṣṇa conscious. Why was Śrīla Prabhupāda successful? Because of his Kṛṣṇa consciousness. Because he had so much love for Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu and the lotus feet of Śrī Śrī Rādhā-Kṛṣṇa.

So, unless we get that love our mission will not become successful. Some scholars who are close to our movement they have written in a book that the success of the Kṛṣṇa consciousness movement will depend on whether the members of this society can actually develop love for Rādhā-Kṛṣṇa. If they can not then the movement will not succeed.

So, I think that, as Nārāyaṇa Mahārāja has told us, that Śrīla Prabhupāda will act as ... he will guide us through the vaiṣṇavas, through our godbrothers. He will guide us and help us in all respects, if we are progressive, to go to the highest stages of Kṛṣṇa bhakti. If we don't do that, Prabhupāda said, the guru is not so pleased to take money from the disciple as much as to see that the disciple is dancing in spiritual life.

So, I think, I recall, Prabhupāda got one letter from Girirāja Mahārāja. And Girirāja Mahārāja wrote that: when the ārati is being performed to Rādhā-Rāsabihari sometimes I start to cry; and when I am reading your books sometimes the tears come. So I am worried because I know that I am a fallen person and you have warned us not to be sahajiyā. So please tell me what is this. And Śrīla Prabhupāda said, "Actually this is the mercy of Rādhā-Kṛṣṇa upon you. This is Śrīmati Rādhikā's mercy upon you. This is not bogus this is genuine."

So I saw how much Prabhupāda was pleased and he became very much pleased to read this letter. He was very personally pleased inside. I could see by this that he was so much pleased to know the advancement of the disciple.

So, I think we must do two things all of us who are Prabhupāda's followers –as we say Rūpānuga there is also Prabhupādanuga. Those who are genuine Prabhupādanugas they should do two things: that with their sādhana they should become more and more advanced. Not to mechanically do sādhana but to actually develop some taste. To get some actual greed in the heart for chanting, for worshiping the deity, for serving the vaiṣṇavas. And at the same time with all of their efforts they should sacrifice their life to spread this Kṛṣṇa consciousness movement. If we do both of these things, just like the two rows of train tracks, and as Rūpa Gosvāmī has said:

sevā sādhaka-rūpeṇa
siddha-rūpeṇa cātra hi
tad-bhāva-lipsunā kāryā
vraja-lokānusārataḥ

[The advanced devotee who is inclined to spontaneous loving service should follow the activities of a particular associate of Kṛṣṇa's in Vṛndāvana. He should execute service externally as a regulative devotee as well as internally from his self-realized position. Thus he should perform devotional service both externally and internally. CC Madhya (22.158) - Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu (1.2.295)]

Externally we should act as a sādhaka and vigorously preach and internally we should try to understand what is Rūpa Gosvāmī, who is Rūpa Gosvāmī, who is Śrīla Prabhupāda, and who are all of the different ācāryas in our line that they are all coming, following Rūpa Gosvāmī who is Rūpa mañjarī.

So, internally understanding their real identity we should try to qualify ourselves one day in some future time, whether in this lifetime or some future lifetime, to be qualified to perform pure sādhana pure bhajana so that when we chant there will actually be some taste, some feeling. But the feeling will come. At least we can desire that, "please let that feeling come one day." And this will actually please Śrīla Prabhupāda. When he sees that the devotees are feeling ecstasy when they are dancing in kīrtana and there are ecstatic feelings within their heart and when they are spreading Kṛṣṇa consciousness as Śrīla Prabhupāda did without any fear. Conquering in all directions. That the whole world should be Kṛṣṇa conscious. Not just on the platform of kaniṣṭha mentality but on the platform of an advanced devotee madhyama-bhaktas and one day uttama-bhaktas. Śrīla Prabhupāda said that Śrīla Bhaktisiddhānta Sarasvatī Ṭhākura said that his mission would be successful if he could create one pure devotee. And Prabhupāda said the same thing. He said, "If I could create one pure devotee my mission would be successful."

So, I think that Prabhupāda actually doesn't one pure devotee, I think he wants many many pure devotees. So, I am simply requesting all the devotees of ISKCON they should fulfill this desire of Śrīla Prabhupāda. That every one of them should one day, by the grace of guru and vaiṣṇavas, become pure devotees. And that will please our spiritual master and it will fulfill the prediction of Śrīla Bhaktisiddhānta Sarasvatī Ṭhākura, Śrīla Bhaktivinoda Ṭhākura, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu. Prabhupāda said, "I will be satisfied if in the history books it is written that the Kṛṣṇa consciousness movement saved the world.

Śrīla Prabhupāda kī jaya!

vaiṣṇava-vṛnda kī jaya!

Gaura premānande!

Hari hari bol!

transcribed September 2012 (Devananda dasa)